For the past two years, I have been exploring the world of self-improvement. Looking back, I can see that I was living life on autopilot without really understanding what I was doing – without intention and clarity.

I have always been ambitious, and I was honestly living what felt like a good life with my partner, exploring the continents and advancing on the career ladder (important note: I love my life!).

But, I was living life on autopilot, with no direction or purpose to guide my choices and decisions.

At that time, I had no idea that diving into the world of self-improvement, philosophy, and productivity would lead to such a realization.

One of my biggest realizations, although it sounds bizarrely basic, is that there is no such thing as the perfect human being, partner, parent, or manager. For a long time, I thought there were.

The endless pursuit of fulfilment comes with a hefty price tag.

The price of pursuing self-awareness

Reading, studying, understanding and embracing topics like self-help, philosophy, and productivity has changed my life in many ways (that calls for a separate post). As my knowledge and personality have leveled up, so have my fears, insecurities and doubts.

In my previous life, as I’m tempted to call it, I lived full throttle, strong and determined. Now I have more questions than answers.

It’s a weird paradox because I’ve become more aware and have grown a lot wiser in the past two years. I thought the point of reading self-help books was to become a better version of myself, not realizing how much I don’t know…

The soul of the wise dwells in the house of the mourning but the lives of the fools dwells in the house of pleasure

Ecclesiastes

The price I pay to live a life in awareness and with intention is a life lived in doubt. At least it feels that way at this stage of my journey.

So, if I will never reach a finish line, will I ever be truly happy and fulfilled? I genuinely feel happy, but my teachings tell me I should question my perception. Isn’t there room for more happiness in my life? Surely there is… Self-improvement is a terrifying yet tremendously rewarding loop.

Learning and reading have made me recognize that I basically know nothing – and that’s okay. It’s a humble experience to feel this way, especially because I thought the opposite would be true! At the same time it reminds me of how much quality content there is so learn.

I would be thrilled if you’d join me

Now I embark on a journey of self-discovery and exploration, to uncover answers to questions that have long been buried beneath my subconscious and learn new about new perspectives and ways of thinking. Ultimately taking one more step towards living intentionally.

I invite you to join me as I explore topics such as self-improvement (striving to become better), philosophy (we can learn a ton from old philosophers and new thinkers), and slow productivity (gradual progress with intentional effort), while also sharing my own insights and experiences.

My goal is to merge it all and make us both smarter in the process.

When I flipped open the first page in the first book I read in this field of non-fiction (Getting Things Done by David Allen), I cluelessly opened up to a plethora of wisdom, ideas and opinions that I never knew existed.

I can’t wait to continue on this path, taking one step at a time towards becoming a better person and living with more intention. I hope my journey inspires you to pursue the next level in your life.